I had no idea whether he could understand everything I said, but I stared at him and continued, “Camelia is a really nice girl. If you look at her closely, you’ll discover that you’ve missed out on a lot in the past few years. When I was very young, I loved eating rock candy, but I could only have them once a month. Sometimes, my grandmother even forbade me from eating it. Since my craving went unsatisfied, I hankered after rock candy every single second of every day.
“Back then, the pumpkin pie my grandmother made was exceedingly delicious. But because I got to eat it every time I craved it, I didn’t find it delicious anymore as time passed. “After that, when I slowly grew up, I could buy rock candy myself when I had pocket money.
At that time, I was very excited and bought several sticks at one go. However, I got sick of it just after eating two sticks. Actually, things we often yearn for are not necessarily what we truly want. Reflecting back on it now, the most delicious thing in my memories isn’t the rock candy, but pumpkin pie. Alas, my grandmother is no longer here, so the taste could only remain in my memories.”
Marcus’ eyes were fixed intently on me. The bridge of his nose appeared high and his black eyes increasingly profound—perhaps because he had grown thinner. “Scarlett, my feelings for you have never been as simple as mere yearning because I couldn’t have you. “Do you still remember how you were when you first came to White residence? Back then, you didn’t talk much. You were very quiet—always silent with a faint smile on your face.
My mother privately told me that a girl like you is very gentle. At that time, I didn’t find anything good about a gentle girl. Later, when we were by the pond, you pushed me in. Now that I think about it, I’ve forgotten how cold the water was. The only thing I remember is your expression, and it remains vivid in my mind.
Although you were angry, you were very beautiful. “When I carried you out of the warehouse, you were covered in blood. You’ve probably forgotten about it, but you clutched at me tightly, insisting persistently and stubbornly that I save the child. Your expression back then was truly distressing. At that time, I felt that Ashton Fuller wasn’t worthy of you since he couldn’t protect you.”
At that, I pursed my lips and dipped my head slightly. The past was too overwhelming to me that they barely beckoned memories anymore.
Nonetheless, he continued speaking. With a bitter smile tugging at his lips, he said, “Thus, I vowed to always take good care of you in the future no matter what happens. I saw the child after it was born, and it already took form. Afraid that you’d be anguished, I took the child away to spare you the grief of seeing it. “Later, you were always in a trance when you learned that the child was gone.
You kept waking up in the middle of the night and spacing out in the room alone. I didn’t notice it in the beginning, but when I later realized it, I kept you company every single night. As time went by, you’d sit beside me and take my hand, asking me to close my eyes and sleep as though you were coaxing me.
“You probably had no idea, but those days were the happiest I’d ever been in my entire life. You always covered me with a blanket when you woke up in the middle of the night. “Sometimes, you’d go into the kitchen when you woke up in the morning, saying that you want to make me breakfast.
Your mind was fuzzy, so the breakfast you made was often burnt or inedible. You’d put sugar into the noodles instead of salt. Actually, sweet noodles don’t taste half bad. Thereafter, I tried making it myself, but I just couldn’t get the same taste as the ones you made me. You said there are no ifs in your world, but Scarlett, you don’t know how cruel it is to me.”
Finally, I looked at him. The past then flashed across my mind. All of a sudden, a wave of sorrow flooded me. I couldn’t deny that I indeed owed him so much that I could never repay him.
In the warehouse, he saved me like a hero, while in Lavelian Village, he took a bullet for me without any regard for his own life. Time and again, he saved me from sure death although I ruthlessly pushed him away every single time. However, when some things had happened, they cannot be undone no matter what.
When confronted with him, I couldn’t even bring myself to say a simple utterance of thanks or apology. That was too trivial, and I knew what he wanted, but I just couldn’t do it.
I simply hadn’t been able to bring myself to utter an apology to him. After a long moment of silence, I asserted, “Camelia is a nice girl, so you should treat her well. Don’t let her end up like… you.”
There were countless possibilities as well as twists and turns in life. Thus, I was well aware that regrets were unavoidable no matter what. It was no different from people lamenting about having failed to cherish their youth and neglected to live life in the moment. All those regrets would accumulate throughout the days to become the most precious and interesting aspect of our memories.
That’s right! Life would be dull without any regrets.
Subsequently, I climbed into my car. Starting the car, I drove away from White residence without bidding him farewell. In truth, I wished him happiness and hoped that he would be able to fall in love with another woman, living a life of his own for the rest of his days.
However, such hope was beyond my control. The only thing I could do was to wish that everything would go well.
When I returned to the villa, I received a phone call from Ashton. He seemed to have been asleep, for his voice was a tad hoarse. “Did you not go to Moore Residence and stay at home alone instead?”
Nodding, I plopped onto the bed and replied, “I was initially going over, but I forgot when I came back. I just felt as though you were waiting for me at home, so I came home.
