Chapter 468
Chapter 468
Emotions are the most unpredictable things in this world, even when you don’t speak, they can be seen in your eyes.
I know this feeling all too well. How could I not understand Russel?
But haven’t I overcome this too? And I feel like I’ve completely healed from the emotional drain!
After a while, I noticed that Russel’s eyes were turning red. He was desperately trying to keep his eyes open, as if to prevent tears from falling. At that moment, he looked wronged, filled with resentment for not being understood, his eyelashes quivering, already wet.
For a moment, I didn’t know what to do. It seemed like the first time I had ever seen Russel like this.
“Russel, are….are you okay?” I hurriedly grabbed a tissue, wanting to wipe the corner of his eyes, but he avoided me.
“I’m fine, I know you’ve always been firm in your decision, never changing. But I don’t want to give up. Other than you, I can’t fall in love with anyone else. To spend my life with a woman I don’t love would be like living with a second Chloe.” Russel’s words were fine until the last sentence which sent a shiver down my spine.
Looking at me, his eyes had regained their calm, even carrying a hint of coldness.
I felt like he was threatening me.
Chloe had lost her life, but she was truly devoted to Russel.
Hasn’t Russel ever felt guilty about Chloe?
Such a statement was too extreme either he never gave up on me, or he was cruel to anyone else who liked him. “What do you mean by that? Russel, don’t be so extreme, okay? You’re not supposed to be like this!” I was getting agitated too.
“You know what kind of person I am. You know almost everything I’ve done, don’t you?” Russel sighed softly. “I didn’t want to be like this, but there are things that if you don’t fight for them, there’s no hope at all.”
I was left speechless by his words, having seen his methods in my past life. He was really no different from Neil; his only downfall was that Bonnie loved Neil in my past life.
After saying these things, Russel turned and left, leaving his flowers on the table. I looked at them for a while but didn’t pick them
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Due to the conflict in the hospital, Russel and I hadn’t seen each other for several days, and we hadn’t been in contact. It was as if we were intentionally avoiding each other.
I seized this opportunity to take a breather and told Stella and the others about what had happened here.
Stella raged in the group chat: [Louis, that bastard, I’m going to hire someone to castrate him!]
Barbara: [I didn’t expect him to be that kind of person, disgusting. But why did he treat you like that?]
Alicia, who was abroad, was still concerned about me: [Is it because of Malinda?]
I didn’t tell them about Louis possibly being a Whitmore family bastard. This news would eventually come out, but until the truth was revealed, I didn’t want to create unnecessary speculation.
Then Stella tagged me in the chat: [Rena, Mitch is back in Eldoria. Isn’t Karina’s son having a birthday? He seems to be attending.] I thought of Hiram’s birthday party, which I had no plans of attending.
I replied: [Yes, he’s turning seven.]
Then the group started gossiping about Karina and Hiram. I occasionally chimed in, but didn’t want to get too involved, as it would affect my mood.
Just then, my phone rang. Seeing Neil’s name, I really didn’t want to answer, so I left it be. But soon he sent a message: [My mom is sick, I need your help.]
Faith is sick? I remembered running into Hiram at the hospital a few days ago. Hiram said Faith was sick and it was Neil who had taken her to the hospital.
But I didn’t ask what was wrong.
What kind of illness could make Neil ask for my help? After all, Karina is the doctor and quite a skilled one at that.
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I’m clueless. What use would I be?
Neil called again, and out of concern for Faith, I answered.
“Can you come over to my place?” Neil asked straightforwardly, sounding rather frustrated.
“What’s wrong with her?” I wanted to know the situation first.
“Depression. She’s showing signs of wanting to give up.” Neil paused before answering me.
Hearing this, my mind went blank.
What the hell?
Faith is usually a sophisticated lady with a great mentality. How could she have depression, and show signs of wanting to give up?!
For a moment, I was dumbfounded and didn’t know how to respond. After hesitating for a while, I finally said, “What good would it
if came over?”
do
“Maybe you can talk to her.” Neil’s words left me speechless. Can you really talk someone out of depression?
Just as I was thinking about how to refuse, a soft sobbing sound came from the other end of the phone, sounding like Faith.
It did sound rather oppressive.
Neil hung up, then sent another message: [My mom has been unable to get over our divorce and losing that baby. I guess that’s why she’s like this.]
Faith has indeed been unable to let go of my divorce with Neil, and the loss of that baby.
Their long-awaited grandchild, just gone like that. Even though they now have Hiram, for them, the baby I lost was also their precious gem.
This message was undoubtedly putting pressure on me. In that matter, I was also a victim, but I initially hid it from Neil and his family, so I do bear some responsibility.
If I had told the Whitmore family back then, I would have been well taken care of, and maybe the baby could have been saved.
But everything was in the past, there were no what-ifs.
As if knowing my decision, Neil immediately sent another message with the address.
“Norah, I’m taking Serena out for a bit.” I decided to take Serena with me, leaving Brandon at home.
Norah had been tired these past few days and I didn’t want to burden her with taking care of two kids by herself.
“Alright.” Norah nodded.
I quickly gathered my stuff and got Serena settled in the car, heading towards Neil’s place.
Neil and Karina’s home wasn’t too far from mine. About a half hour later, I was pushing Serena up to Neil’s front door, which was festooned with colorful balloons and birthday decorations. Today was Hiram’s birthday.
Of course, we weren’t the only guests. I spotted Mitch as well.
Mitch was entertaining Hiram when I arrived and he looked a bit uncomfortable when he saw me, probably because of the past unpleasantness over Stella.
