Oh, so he’s asking me now? Jiang Xiaobai smiled and purposely provoked him, “Of course, I want to go. Look at this invitation card; it was designed so nicely. I just know the wedding itself is going to be grandiose. You’re going to regret not going to a large-scale wedding like this at least once.”
Xiao Su glanced at the invitation card as if to affirm her words. A while later, he gave her a nod. “Okay then. If you want to go, then let’s go.”
Her eyes narrowed. “So you agree?” She did not think that he would agree to go to that wedding. After all, the bride was the woman he loved and he would have to witness her getting married to someone else. It was like stabbing his own heart with a knife.
But to her surprise, he agreed. He even casually added, “Didn’t you say you want to go?”
“You’re going because I want to go? What if I don’t want to go?”
“Then we can do something else.”
She was speechless. He was clearly placing the decision in her hands. I guess I decide whether we go or not. He said so himself; if I go, then he will go with me. If I don’t go, then we can do something else. How perfect. I can’t find any fault in that.
But for some reason, she was not satisfied with his answer. Picking up the invitation card, she turned around and left. This time, she worried that he would use the key to open her room door again so she informed him, “I’m not going to lock the door. Please don’t come in again. I want to be alone!”
Xiao Su, who was left at the dining table, held on to his bowl and watched her back with a mysterious expression on his face. What is happening? The question she asked was clearly a trick question. No matter what I answered, it would have made her unhappy. So, after pondering for a moment, he decided to let her make the decision. Moreover, he planned to go with whatever decision she made. But why is she still mad?
He just could not figure out what was going on in her mind, and he also did not have the appetite to eat anymore. Looking at all the food on the table, he decided to get up and start cleaning up.
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“Fang Tangtang, I’m telling you; you’re half responsible for this. If you didn’t step in and bring him to your house that night, I wouldn’t have ended up in his house, then I would have never agreed to be his girlfriend. Isn’t that right? Don’t you think you should be partly responsible for this?”
Fang Tangtang was rendered speechless for being called out like that. Without the least bit of courtesy, she refuted, “Excuse me, but all I did was bring him to my house. I didn’t make you say yes to being his girlfriend. You just didn’t realize your own desire to be his girlfriend. What has that got to do with me? Don’t throw your burden on me because it isn’t mine to carry.”
“Then whose is it? Weren’t you the one who invited him to your house?”
“So what? You can’t blame it entirely on me. If you insist, then let me ask you this: if you did not have that desire in the first place, even if I invited him to my house to see you, would you have gone along with him? What if it wasn’t Xiao Su? What if it was a fat, ugly, short, and poor man? Would you still have agreed to be his girlfriend?”
“I hate you!”
Fang Tangtang was content. “As long as you know. Don’t put the blame on me.”
Jiang Xiaobai did not respond. She was just filled with regret.
“Since you’ve already agreed to it, I think you should just follow your heart. Why are you overthinking it? It’s not like you didn’t know he already had someone in his heart before you decided to be with him. He also said he would try to date you. If it doesn’t work out, you can just dump him. Besides, he’s still young, he won’t have trouble looking for another woman. The fact is that woman is going to get married and he’s going to have to move on from her, whether he wants to or not.”
“What about me? Am I supposed to wait until he doesn’t like her anymore to be loved? That thought alone makes me furious.”
“You’re furious? I can only love my idol as a mother would love her child. I don’t even dare to love him as my boyfriend. And you? At least you already have his physical person. If it were me, just being able to get either his heart or his body would send me to the moon.”
Jiang Xiaobai snorted. “You sure are easy to please. You can only say that because you’ve never actually had physical contact with him. Just wait until you do; you will start to desire his heart as well. That’s how the human heart works. Thinking that you can still be with him even if he likes someone else is honestly just the start of it. Over time, you will want both his body and his heart to yourself.”
“That sounds quite accurate. But to me, that’s a matter for the future. You’re here crying out to me when you at least have his person; what do I have? Hmph. Pity me; I’m just a supporter.”
“Good luck,” Jiang Xiaobai comforted her sincerely. “Keep going. I believe that you will get to be with your idol one day.”
The both of them talked about everything under the sun. At last, Fang Tangtang told her that her idol was having a performance at a hotel and asked Jiang Xiaobai to go with her. Jiang Xiaobai scoffed then scolded, “Since the moment you brought Xiao Su to me, I already decided that I wouldn’t follow you to bars to look for your idol anymore. Aren’t you super independent? Just go by yourself.”
After she heard that, Fang Tangtang pretended to cry. “Don’t be like this, Xiaobai. I only did it for you guys. See; you’re boyfriend and girlfriend now. If this continues to develop, you guys will be stepping into a wedding hall soon!”
“Shut up!”
“Go to the wedding with him. This naïve man has to witness for himself the woman he loves marrying another man and know that he doesn’t have a chance anymore. Only then will he be able to let go.”
Even if Fang Tangtang did not say that, Jiang Xiaobai had already planned to do just that. Since she chose to be with Xiao Su, despite only agreeing to try it out, Jiang Xiaobai was not the kind of person to back away in the face of adversity. Since Xiao Su did not like her yet, she was going to win him over. She was outstanding. There was no way she could not move that naïve man! “You don’t have to tell me. I know what to do.”
“Then will you follow me to see my idol tonight?”
“I’m not going. Go away!”
“Hmph! This superficial friendship.”
When Xiao Su climbed into bed that night, he only saw Jiang Xiaobai’s back facing him. She slept on her other side, and fell asleep while hugging onto a pillow.
The room was silent, which felt rather unfamiliar to him. During the time they spent together, although they did not do anything at night, Jiang Xiaobai always asked for a goodnight kiss before they went to bed.
